How did I come up with that name and what does it mean,
for ME?
Well,
A long story short: I was visiting a weight loss support website and
they had a bulletin board. One of the member's had the nick name "too
fat to be cute" (or something of that nature). I thought to myself, "Man, she is hard on herself!" keep in mind, I didn't know anything else about her - these were just the thoughts in my head when I saw her username.
Even though I'm considered "Obese" I still think I'm sexy as hell! I feel sexy, I can still pick up guys when I go out, (if I wanted to) I don't hide in a shell and my personality just ROCKS, if I do say so myself! I remember thinking to myself, "I'm glad that I have security, love, and happiness in my life...even though I'm fat".
Not
that the other woman DIDN'T have these things, but the user name...I
don't know, it just made me sad. I often hoped that she was happy with
her life and herself, no matter what her APPEARANCE looked like.
And
then I needed to think of a user name for another bulletin board. I got
tired of my regular screen names involving "Mom", "Daycare" and "NC" -
not that I don't like those; they are a part of me, but, I'm doing this
FOR me, I need an independent name, something to keep me motivated, yet
show my personality a bit.
And then "TooCute2BeFat" popped into my head. I thought, "oh that would be cute (no pun intended!) I'm too cute, to be fat"! I'm losing this weight (among a million other reason's) so that my outside reflects my inside personality.
I'm cute damn it, and the world is gonna know it.
It wasn't for a few hours (or maybe even a days!) until I logged back into the original site, and I saw that user name
again and I thought, "AH-HA! That's why it popped into my head"! And
ever since then I've been known as "TooCute2BeFat" for my weight loss journey. A journey that has taken me through many different programs, diets, and exercise routines. If you did a Google search on my username, you'd find many different things linked. You'll see many attempts, some failed and some successful - but obviously nothing has stuck.
Sadly,
it has started and stopped countless times...like most weight loss
journeys, I suppose. But so far, I haven't gotten past my 'ultimate'
high weight and I guess that does say something :0) I
thought I'd tell the story of how I chose my nickname online, because
often I have people ask why I call myself fat? Why? Because I am. I'm
not afraid to admit it. And being fat isn't bad, I'm just choosing not
to be a statistic any longer.
Sure it's gonna take some time, and I think *honestly* that
once I reach goal, I will be choosing a different name. Not because I
wouldn't feel that way anymore but because I wouldn't want to
unknowingly offend someone who is on the plus size, who doesn't realize
I've 'been there done that' by using this name anymore.
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